Shame!

About two years ago, I read Healing the Shame that Binds You by John Bradshaw. What precipitated my reading that was that my mind repeatedly revisited past events of which I am ashamed.

One of the things Bradshaw encourages is to ferret out the sources of toxic shame in one's life.

I was raised to feel ashamed of myself. My parents were ashamed of me, as were my siblings.

Perhaps the acquaintances around me were trained by me to treat me as they were ashamed of me.

My most recent partner treated me as though he is ashamed of me. He admits to being constantly afraid of me, as if it is my fault. Perhaps some of the blame is mine. I don't know.

Since it has been two years since I read this volume, I probably need to read it again, to refresh my mind.

I am tired of being ashamed most all the time.